Without You

I can't win
I will always lose-
Without you
I can't soar
I will always fall-
Without you
I can't dance
I will always stumble-
Without you
I can't laugh
I will always cry-
Without you
I can't sleep
I will always be dreamless-
Without you
I can't run
I will never win this race-
Without you
I can't stop
 I will always love you
With you....

Insanity

Confined within four walls
Incapable of escape
Voices scream continuously
White walls, white floors, white everything
Am I what they say I am?
Grasping for words
Indescribable, full of dread
Trapped within my own mind.

Don't give up on me

Sliding-
Straight into a world dividing
Holding on; my grip slips
Pummeling and my body tips
People screaming, I'm numb
This isn't my time to come
Dark, silent, crimson
This can't be my extinction?
Little voices, louder
My head's the doubter
Whereas my heart continues to beat-
I'm not allowing such an easy defeat
Concrete, salty, soaked
Where am I?
My arms drenched, bloodied
Confusion- my mind muddied
My body aches, I'm screaming inside
All they could say was they "tried"
I'm a fighter!
My heart feels lighter
BEEP-BEEP-BEEP
"LOOK!!"

Don't ever give up on me.



*Side note: I get nightmares where I'm in a car accident. A lot of the time, I'm the one driving. My dreams usually never end this far, but to my loved ones, if this ever happens... I promise I'll always fight my hardest to come back. I love you. Especially Angie, you're the love of my life...

Never Releasing

Million miles apart
Thoughts weigh heavy upon the heart
Irregular rhythm to note the distance
There's only one existence
Never changing and going forward; always a step behind
Reaching to where we will be; "Once upon a time(d)"
Struggling to resist to cease
Every thought of you, my heart rate increase
Fingers; never touching
However, you, in my fingers tightly clutching
Never releasing-
Afraid to continue ceasing
You're mine and I, yours
Secret Keepers in its' entirety.

Winter Wonderland

Snow on the ground,she picks up her dress
Corsage on her wrist;
Flowers in the curliness of her hair
Natasha sways in each step;
Her hand in mine
A perfect match
Snowflakes hang in the air
Music flow as we spin round and round
Her dress turquoise as her birthstone
Beautiful revenge;
Against Phillip and his new buck-teethed girl
Her smile so big, it's contagious
Her task is complete;
All I want to do is spin her the night away.


*Side note: A while ago, Brad asked me to do a poem with the name of Natasha and Phillip and their relationship conflict; this is what I came up with. Me being the third point of view of a guy who just wanted to make her happy. (This is what I hope is the way most guys think toward women!) But anyways, I thought it was amazing and decided to add it here.

Secret

Luscious lips
Bleeding crimson
Vengeful kisses stolen
Lips sought the nape of her neck
Sweet perspiration salty upon the tongue
Moans escape her throat
Proving her loss of self-control
Silent tears roll down her cheeks
Hand-in-hand,
Bound of secrets not meant to keep-
Always left wanting,
Needing more
But the secret has her bound-
As every lips has a secret kiss.

*Side note: This is just a random poem I got after reading the "city of Bones" series. The love Jace and Clary have for each other was really empowering to read about. If you haven't read it- GO! Get the book, it's seriously amazing to read.

Petals in the wind

Two roses of love-
With thorns of flaws

One of blood red-
Red for passionate

One of white-
White for purity

Two intertwining-
Interlocking a bond of trust

Two differences-
Together form strength

One petal from each-
Both a single promise

You & me.


*Side note: This was a poem I wrote for Angie a couple of weeks ago. I was feeling pretty sweet and lovey-dovey so I thought I'd write her a poem. I love her with my whole heart, I can't believe we've literally been together for two and a half years. It's been amazing.